geez

i wish i could just lie down on the floor and sleep
i am actually half braindead but have to keep coming
up with ideas , but tis ok , its not nothing like anyone
of the hardest time in my life

i've been through a lot more than this

-

I feel really sorry about anything immature
I have ever done to anyone

I'm trying the hardest
not to make any of the same mistake
and determined to my life, my passion,

thanks so much for being around

I can't make it
through this life all by myself
thanks so much

+

been having lots of school works due and has to be finished
but fuck man im ready and pumped for that
gotta get all the things done : D

now im at radio studio playing X Japan on the air xD
i got their album about last week from loraine
i've been hearing their name from my housemate
who loves 80s heavy rock/ pre-metal music

2nd album , blue blood , released 1989
which I'm listening as well while Im playing
man its really good sound ! so 80s heavy rock !

im trying my hardest to learn how to communicate and understand
with people better, i guess i still have much to learn

I think im doing a hand-drawing animation for a
9 week project next semester, its gonna be really challenging
coz i have never done it before, i meant i draw , but i dont
animate them , so gonna be doing that kind of things
during the forthcoming holiday i think

ummm i gotta go pretty soon
have a good one : ) !!!

all this will end in 3 weeks

loads of works
loads of works
loads of works
loads of works
loads of works
loads of works
loads of works
loads of works
loads of works

>< !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

alright i gotta get back to it ..

bigger stronger

wanna give a shout out to all of my friends
i really love you guys ...
with out you guys ,im nothing
and i can't do anything
no point for me being here

i've been meeting some
beautiful and cool people
and seeing a much bigger world
ahead of me ..and it's a happy place : )
like full of colour shit u know haha

i wanna be able to commnicate better
meet more people, see more things , learn more
do more things , and fucking travel the world
u know just fucking live a life man

social stuffs has never been big in my life
i hardly ever just hang out with anyone during my teens
i keep things to myself, i dont really go out ,
thus ...i cant commnicate that well with peopel all the time
i did had some social problems

i know i've changed and been learning
but there's more to do

much love
ray

drugs in vegas

I went to see drugs in vegas tonight again
still i enjoy their songs after listening to them
so many times already , it was a mad night
because it was the EP launch gig, quite like
they say , it was a big party, tickets were
sold out , and the crowds were just awesome

i went skating this morning, with a japanese
friend i met last time , kayato : )
man he's such a cool dude ,

he showed me his music in the ipod
today, SICK man so many japanese songs !!
this'd be good for my radio show , i should
get him to get to my house to put songs on

i saw herdly today again
met him last time at the same park
he's a really cool dude too ,
he corrected my ollie today
i shall see him soon : )

and saw adam as well at the station
he's a good skater, he said he's going
to a place 1 hrs away from the city
to film stuffs, coz he's gonna be in
a skating video that's coming out in june !
they're pre-screening that shit on 29th may

then i went skating shop afterward
talked to the guy borrowed me skating dvd
last time, he does judo man , that's cool

the other guy does judo as well at my karate
place, but he is a dickhead

umm ohhh man i saw caz again at the gig
tonight too ...umm i met caz at the
drugs in vegas gig last time , then
i saw and talked to her last time i went
to the duke spirit , she's a photographer
doing pictures for music megazine : )

man she's saying she sometimes couldn't
get much sleep , coz the show finishes up
around 12, and she has to edit photos even
after getting home .....man that sounds shit ..

i know because to do a high quality photo
in photoshop to make it look good ...
it just takes ages to render ........
dont even mention she does that many

umm xd

alright , i fucking have to do school works
tomorrow , it's gonna be fucking boring

i sometimes do think that i learn so much more
outside of school, and school is a thing that
really stop me from learning about life

while i can be bothered
i just wanna type this down

mick on the vocal in the band said today
"without you guys in the room here with us
there isn't that much point for us doing music "

i think that's so true ...
for many things we do ....
share is a big reason for it ..
and it is important, if we can't
share the joy we're having ,
it just sucks ..

and

i realized today that
people are generally lovely
its just sometimes they don't
know how to transfer who they are
or communicate with others ..

i sort of think technology has
changed the way we live..
people tend to stay home much more
rather than going out getting in touch
with others in the world ....

so i guess many of us started losing
the sense or ability of how to

' Communicate '


take care
hugs

ray

works

this week i spend quite a bit time
actually most of the time doing school works ..
no skating, guitar , no karate ...it kind of sucks

since i started skating
it has busted lot of parts of my body..
like elbow, knee, left hip, left thigh ..
-________________- " but i wanna ollie !!

now i gotta go and get the book ...to write essay
i have doe 700 words !! hahaha
300 more to go , easy !

but have to write another 2000 words one
after that , holy shit hahaha
motherfucker

take care

ray