what am i like

sometimes i feel like i am trying too hard trying to
be friends with everyone, it feels really hard occasionally
cause you can not be someone who everyone wants to be
friends with, possibly lots of people but not every single person

i don't know i am really trying cause friends are such a
good resource of information, help, etc.
it's amazing to make new friends and
have a lot of friends ............................

maybe i should find a book
abut making friends so it makes
things easier

efficient

went to karate dojo yesterday
i did about 30 mins full on traiing
jumping around and all that

to finish up everything really efficiently
could be kind of a pain because you have
focus so hard and stuff yourself with loads
of contents in a short time

should start thinking
how i can learn faster
and how i can improve faster

caroline

i miss caroline so much
sometimes it is almost unberable : (

i wrote couple of emails to her
but she never really types much

perhaps the only thing i can do now
would be stop thinking about her
and focus on how to move to France

the rest of it will sort themself out i hope

longer prospective

it always seems a bit harder to look at things at longer prospective
for instance, rather than watching porns, it'd be better to work on
social skill and build the buddy up to attract female and fuck a real one ..

i just seems that sacrafices for some pleasures of life
and spend those time on much better things to get
what you really want

what do i really want ?

too much

am i really doing too much
i am spending time working toward
the goal but it seems i have to sacrifice
other goals to get it done....or sacrifice sleep
to gain more time .....

i don't know how to do this man
either doing it very very efficiently
this is hard though, but that's the way
it should go ... let's do that