working hard and its not happening again

I've been trying to do lots of reviews
and I slack off quite a bit writing them

you must not do this Ray
as kair has told you before
you gotta be jonny on the spot ..
and gotta stay on top of things ...

though it was just hard for me to
stay focus on something for a long time
except for things I am really really
passionate about, I love moving around

I read about the front man from Dirty Secrets
he said one of the best way to learn is to
meet new people and learn what they
do, man it sounds awesome that was
exactly what I think !

I should set myself on a mission like that
too ! man

and the other thing never will happen again
is not to talk to the person I wanna talk to

FUCK
I HATE THAT FEELING

SO FUCK NO

ok..

it'd always be like this once in a while
where I question where am I aiming to
and where exactly I am ......

fuck I was gonna type something but I
forgot it now, anyway I feel a bit lost now

happiness is only granted to ones who
want to take it, if you stress yourself
all the time over anything.

well happy people do not complain
you like what you doing don't you
so go on and enjoy the most of it

jump and grab it

take care you all

man

piles of stuffs stack over my head
traveling, writing review, training
and just lots of things, i meant ....

yea i keep telling myself its ok ...its ok ...its ok
i will do great i will do great

i requested for writing the review for Ladyhawke
whom I liked a lot, I didn't have much thoughts but
have the enormous aspiration of seeing Ladyhawke
because after last time i saw her like 1 year ago ?
she hasn't played any solo tour around Australia
at all except for the summer festival

so yea ...gotta work hard on this one
and it'd be so cool just chill ...
things will turn out well

been trying to do karate every single fucking
morning, i've been able to keep at it for 3 days
I don't know how long will I keep going for
but ! I'd reckon it's hard at the start, yet as
it gets into you habit, you might even find
it hard to get out of it .... so yea just keep at
it and its definitely beneficial for karate
in general ....

what else is happening .. too much
the travel things is so getting over my
head, fuck man I applied for the mentoring
program, I really fucking hope I'd get the
chance of doing it ... it'd so awesome

and fuck it if everything will be happening around
Jan- Feb cause I won't fucking be in here

cheers take care you all
Ray

8 nov

it seems that all the people who're doing great
all have been sticking to it and working on it
really hard to reach it, am I not letting everything
slip away , perhaps i am

shut up and explore

so why don't you push harder
and stop wasting all the time ?