meeting standards

I've been reading a book titled stop being a nice guy
as funny it might have sounded, there are tons of good
suggestions to me ... because I really do think I am one of
those nice guys who always put what people think of me ahead
of what I really think of myself ... or what I really like myself

which I believe in reality, most people do

it seems also that I tend to seek approval or validations
from other people to confirm my worth as well

and my world and goals of life is not really self-centered either
they all seem to have been constructed in a way to be able
to meet a certain standard type of person

I am forgetting about what I really love and what I really like to do
what I really love to achieve and what I really need

From my childhood, my mom has always been a figure who
try to take control over my sister's and my life
she gives so many opinions and limits to us of what we
can really become and what we really need to do in life

but the fact is she is neither really supportive and concerned
about what we really need and what talents we really do have
she just seems to put us into a spot where general society can
recognize us as a successful person

but the fact by the end of your life, who exactly can really tell
you in the face that you have been successful ?

and wouldn't it be just sad that you have achieved so many goals in life
but none of them is what you really desire