today

my school starts tommorow at 9 am
it's gonna be a tough year i guess
since its the last one, but I'm looking
forward to it, I think things will be great : )

since I've been talking and meeting people
around me, some of them are amazing, and some
of them are strange, I don't understand them at all
but I don't wanna think about it too much

i guess being young is a gift
we have so many time and strengh
as well as opputunities ........
I've been thinking about what the heck
exactly am I doing in this world .....

but the answer is unknown, now I do
know what I like and what I wanna learn
but I can not predict the future nor know
exactly what I will do in 4 or 5 years ...

though I do know my aim isn't gonna be
for the benefit of myself, basically
I don't consider myself is existing ..
what I mean by that is yes I do 'physically'
exist NOW, you can hear and see me all
because my Body is functioning as a human ...

in another 80, 70, 60 years, "I" do not exist ..
I might be lying underground or burned into ashes..
who knows ..

but while my human body and brain still runs..
there must be something I can do for any benefits
for the next generations in any terms.. even it is little bit

anyway ,that's what I think of myself ....
I should clean my room today .....

take care : )

=

I dont mean I will leave
like " ok im pissed off , good bye "

I understand what you're saying
I need time too to figure out myself
to know what went wrong with me in my life

but plz take care

sorry

i didnt wanna hurt anyone
i didnt wanna make anyone uncomfortable
thats not what i want


now i need time to figure out myself

living under a rock

sometimes i take a moment and start viewing
things around me, and everything seems just
so UNREAL , in a way

its like i never understand how
this world works , why is everything
happening the way it is and stuffs

why is people doing the things they're
doing , behaving , thinking , talking

it seems so normal as if they' were
all the ways they were supposed to be
but it is just NOT

i don't know if that makes sense

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I'm pretty lucky all my housemates are so nice
I was afraid that some people might isolate themselves
but guess I worried too much

Lisa is an Australian used to live in Canberra,
she's doing drama course at the same Uni as mine
she wants to be an actor..............

Edward is an Australian too who has a metal band
called Striker, he's the lead singer and lead guitar
it's cool to have him coz we just had a short lesson of
how to strum guitar last night :D it felt good

we also got onto the garage band, which is a recording
program a lot of home-based studio artists use
and recorded one of his songs from the band
Edward played two tracks of guitar and did the vocal
it came out pretty cool, but it could be better

it really got me listening to the songs in so
different ways once you actually get your hands on
these recording and mixing tracks thing, i talked to
two the lecturers in SAE last time i went on the
open day , they told the first thing you'll need
to learn is how to capture the sound... then is the
effect and balance of signal and everything ...

the reason being is i guess exactly like filming
you wanna get the best footage by the beginning
so anything afterward could be fixed or modified
in the program, as well as the sound .........

and there are just numerous of types of ways to
capture sounds and types of processes of recording
them , I read it on an audio Tech magazine before
some people like to do the drums first and let
everything works along or around with it
and some people do the vocals first .....
sometimes it could even be possible to record
everything at the same time ,

anyway, i was talking to Becky yesterday on msn
about the Music Festival thing she used to organize
in Taiwan, the Spring Festival , coz i told her i
want pull off one of those things too , but more
internationally , Taiwan is a strange place, it has
the biggest market and environment in Chinese Music
industry, musicians from Hong-Kong, Malaysia, Singapore,

if any of them ever wanna expand or further their
career in Music, they'd come to Taiwan to sign up with
one of the record company, it seems like it's a place
where music should just bloom up like fireworks...

but it didn't, mainstream music is still so limited ..
lots of talented musicians doing alternative things
are still having trouble getting their daily wage

and we don't have any major international music festival..
as for Asian, Japan has Fuji Rock Festival, and thousands
of international acts, including the Myspace secret Japan
just had Lilly Allen in Tokyo ........
Korean has Pentaport Rock Festival which has been held
for 3 years ..... Indonesia had Iron Maiden landed on ..etc.

anyway , Becky said she thinks its a cool idea
and she said she will help me pull if off lol ..

Becky is a Taiwanese lady i knew online
she's a clothes desginer, has her own brands..
she's six years older than me , I like talking to
people older than me, coz i just feel i got so much
out of them every time somehow ......

like how i was speaking with Mark, my teacher
in Karate dojo,
i felt that too every time talking to mom..
I talked to her last night
I said I'd go back to do my army service after finishing
my course here, well army service is compulsory for any
male over 18 in Taiwan, we have to do it, but a lot of people
try so hard to get away from it ,
tho I'm very looking forward to it,just to know how to use guns
and throw grenades ....to blow someone up ... LOL
and it was said that.. you will be mature as fuck
once you came out of that place, i was thinking
oh man ... that's exactly what i want !

it'd take me nearly 2 years to finish that , and
I will be doing some audio things ...........
I hope i will have a lot of time spending with my mom
when I'm back to Taiwan, she's been alone i guess ..
since my dad screwed the money up when i was 14 ..
she's been working so hard, so we don't really have
much time spending together, and then i was out in Australia
after 17, we spend even less time ..........
last time i saw her was 1 year ago , it felt so bad
that i had to see her walk away at the airport

anyway ..
take care guys !!


ray

my head spins

I now truly live in a house
that gets speak english for full-time
with non-stop ...............

and i think i feel a bit overloaded ..
spinning head .................

Im so tired

just moved this morning to where I'm gonna stay
for a year, now what's coming is the hardest part
of moving, unpacking and replacement.......

I totally sat there looking at my 26 boxes, 3 lodges
lots of bags, didnt know where to begin .....fan
and I was so hungry

I unpacked for a bit then fell asleep on the ground
as I usually do when I'm really tired....

I met Lisa , moving in to my next room,
and two more people moving in probably
next day or whatever

yeh... I know its valentine's day
and I'm not sure I like it ...
I love this music video tho
it is so sweet ....