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I haven't updated this for ages
I am so lazy and bad at keeping this posted
I guess I will type a little
but does anyone really read this ?
um never mind

last Friday we karate fellows
got together and had a meal at
a racecourse hotel , where people
bet on horse-racing and football
so there were around 15 people

Steff, Conuur, Lana, and Luke
played a bit of pool that night
was great and funny as hell xd
because everyone was so bad at it
hahahahha, there's one shot
steff was trying to tell me how
to do but i failed really hard
and boss Luke was bagging her
" good instruction steff" aside

the first game steff got the black
ball sank so she was ultimately lost
the game, and she was really upset
about it then walked off hhahahha
she said she needed another drink
and she'll get better , but she only
got worse afterward .....

and steff bit conuur on his arm
coz he lock her neck from behind
for playing ... and there was bruises ..

umm lots of people don't behave like
adults at our karate place

Luke told me how to play stacker
machine that night, but I failed
so hard at it due to my slow reflexes ..
I really want the iPOD as major prize though

I've been trying to do karate every morning
for a bit , either streching or whatsoever
because sensei Luke has told me that he does
it every morning, I was like " woo cool , I wanna do that
too " , but it is easier than done, you do get lazy sometiems
it is hard to maintain the routine ....well done boss

I've been doing the weapon bo as well
it is getting better , and I found that
I have to start slow to get the right
centre of weight of the stick to be
able to spin it efficiently

there's so many great gigs coming up
in Melbourne, can't wait to see those ..
everytime feel so alive to be there
at the venue and listening to those bands

I've decided to feel bad about what I
wanna do, you got to have belief in
what you're doing, what your dream is
people of course will tell you it is not
possible or it is really hard, because
most of the people are afraid of stepping
out into an unkown world, and they're
afraid of being irregular to the standard
of society, most of them chose to walk
down the path of what the society has
set them to, because it looks safer

but don't listen to what people
told you, I have deeply learned
that, because the thought and
decision I've had years ago all
have been proved they were right
I've been right the all time ..

anyway, it is going too deep again


I've been spending a lot of time
researching about music and listening
to them , school works seem to stupid and
crap to me somehow, I wonder how
much exactly they can teach me,
all the learning resource depends
on how much your strech yourself,
of course they can give you advice of
many different things they have seen
before, but stupidly enough, most of
the students don't seem to want to give
their most effort into their work

you really start wondering if University
is the place people who have the similar
dreams gather together, or it is just a result
of commercial corporation trying to
comfort people's insecurity of their
future, I think I am right

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so after having thought about what i wanna
do for the rest of this year, i wanna focus on
doing these things :


read ( english ability )
social life ( since i don't really have one )
skate-board
school
karate
training
audio engineering

there are so much more things
i really wanna do and learn
but i guess these are all my time
can fulfill at the moment



all the best
and much love

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holiday is about to be gone
soon we'll all back in school
and work our ass off on projects
after projects, having your full
life sleeping in a lab things

the school result is coming
out on Friday, I am so worried
about my stupid score, if I failed
it, good thing is that I could
go travel between the gap year
before I gradute, and I could continue
doing karate at the same time ...

but the bad thing is that I'd
waste more money on same subject ..
and time, that'd suck so much

I've been skating and just
focusing on doing karate ..
but every now and then I wodnered
so much what the hell im doing

it feels so aimless sometimes
because I dont really set thigns like
goal or milestone in my life , it makes
everything seem so restless , having
no where to set its root

and I've been trying really hard
to get a richer social life , its
not so easy , for some people it is
but i used to be too use to doing things alone
and being mentally disconnected from others

what else has been happening
I m now pretty much going to karate
every night , even i dont have class
doing sparring practice tomorrow with a guy

fuck the weather looks awesome today
going out for a skate soooon !!!!
it now feels so good to skate
after having the control of the board
better !! haha :D:D

hmmm been trying to listen to some emo
bands too , and any bands i could find
really, found a shoegaze band last night
called vivian girl with influence from
wiper and nirvana, i might talk about it
with steff tonight , she like nirvana

I do really think I should work on
my english so much more now, i haven't
seriously studied on it for a while
but english ,, thats the things
that'd get a lot of things i want
in life , social-wise and job-wise

dam im so worried about the result

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I haven't seriously updated this for a while
hmm I guess I just forgot that I still got a blog here

I borrowed bunch of Samurai movies from the library
for research, I think about 10 or more lol
I am gonna rip all them off on my hard-disk drive
cause I guess all those DVD aren't the same region
as my computer is set to be : )

hmm been skating not really on regular basis
but I do carry the board out with me everyday
make sure my two foots are on the board

what else,, and have been drawing as well
checking out music, man i pretty much spend
today sitting in front of computer reading about
music on wikipedia , i don't go CD shop so often
for now , so i need some new refreshing tunes
though it wasn't that easy to find some
pleasing sounds for some reason

I've been fussy about music
probably have to find a quiet time
listening to them carefully //

I download a bunch of videos from a youtube
channel called " goSwedish " , a girls has
made loads of videos teaching Swedish
that's pretty sweet, so hopefully i will
be picking up one or two

I've been having a feeling that
sometimes I am being so neurotic ,
but all I gotta do is love and believe yeh ?!

I feel like seeing a gig
but I have no idea which one to go
nor whom to go with , MOFO .....


"Dance like no one's watching. Sing like no one's listening.
Work like you don't need the money.
Love like you've never been hurt before.
Live like there's no tomorrow."

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I miss jonna :D:D:D !!

..

I sort of just threw up because I ate too much



LOL

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a bit more to go from holiday ><
go go go